When the hopes of mine
That a single soul would be reading the previous thoughts
And shower me with wisdom words
That is when I realise
What are you putting yourself into now dear self?

You forgot whooo has been with you through the ups and the downs
The calamity
Waves of emotions
Did that made you think less?
I thought

He has been with you
What else are wondering of?
It was whether you

Youu

Kau telah berganjak sedikit atau lari dariNya
Baru sedikit cubaan
Kau dah berlebam mata
Mengelak manusia
Takut dibaca
Kau apa masalah Husna?

Bukan selama ni kau yang sering berkata
Ujian, cubaan tanda kasihNya
Sekarang kau diuji dengan kata-kata mu sendiri
Betulkah kau membenarkan apa yang kau ujari selama ini

Ini tarbiyyah buat dirimu mungkin, Husna
Melihat sejauh mana kau betul-betul mengimani apa yang kau perkatakan

So are you giving up now?
Have you not remember that
He is ArRahman ArRahim?
One out of hundredths of His Rahmat are for those on Earth
How loving,graceful and merciful He is
Are you losing hope now?

p/s: is this PMS or whaaaaat?
A gentle reminder aka slap for myself
This is for me, myself and AIIII
Personatlity issues maybe?
ohhAdiyos

What is this clot
What is this blurry cover sheet
What is this punch
What is thisss?
What is this shake kicking this inside of mine?
What is this?

Is this something I know nothing of?
A new side of life I am venturing into?

What is this?

This helpless feeling
This unknown emotion that tires yourself
Tiring yourself weeping
Shedding all these unnecessary thoughts

Thoughts of life
Of human nature
Of yourself
Your ability
It is strangling just too hard now

When the future scares you
and
You don't feel like even peeping into the future
Because you seem to know what you will be facing
What you expect always hits the target
That fear
How is it possible for a man to look beyond imperfections and continue life?