Don't fill ourselves up with the wrong medicine
here you go-oh-hoh

I know nothing about him but my heart goes out to him



الفاتحة

from here

Missing someone is normal and there is no problem to it
Missing someone too much adding up to the fact that someone being missed is of a different sex
that is when the problem arise

Missing that one person that you 
gave up on food cause you think the joy of eating is just not there anymore
gave up on waking up cause you know waking up brings no different
gave up  on doing what you love most cause you don't find the pleasure of doing so
*hmm.talking as if I have all the experience?haishh.shh.haha

This is when the problem arise
Been there and wish to not be in that position again
SO
the hollow inside us can be solved can be fixed can be filled
Fill it with Zikrullah:)









COLOURS









Waiting for the rainbow we

Forgot about the rain that comes first

Together with the the lightning and thunder

When the sun sets in slowly that is when the COLOURS blends in together

If it were only for a split second or in a blink of an eye

The fact remains that it was there and used to be there

Captivating or not we had it in mind




Husna has invited me on the wrong blog.

Hello readers of Husna's blog, this is her friend who annoys her everyday and get annoyed by her everyday but we still wants to be friend to each other  because we know we can't be separated or if we were to separate it would be boring, dull and somehow weird whatever. I am currently bored and hungry. So I think I should get going. Make myself fat more and be lazy sitting in front of Television with my hand holding remote control.

Love, Sakinah.
A journey of self-discovery is what I went through 
thou learning from others made it more unique and interesting
For I can see a more colourful picture of life
22nd,23rd,24th,25th
is just what i needed at a time like this 
where current obsession took over myself
That period of time track me down back to what I should be
When things were toring apart, the inner me
It grasp myself back to what I should believe in
TRUST,FATE,FAITH,FRIENDSHIP,CHANCES,STRENGTH
I thank Him for the OPPURTUNITY :)
it;'s Opportunity eh @buttercup ?


I thank Him for the OPPORTUNITY :)


Careless me
Ummi have been mentioning me as her careless child
Not that I care-less about others
It's just you don't see me care for others
WAIT
that was not what I was planning to write
I wanted to say this
I lost my rainbow umbrella because of my carelessness


















Its over The three days of sleepless nights will end today In a way I feel like there's a hole like how I felt when I saw the first part of Harry Potter i have a lot to babble but again I am too tired

I am practically in tears right now
SNAPPPPPP!
wait I should not be writing it here
I'll be spazzing about it in the other imaginary blog :B



 

Well Well Well

What will I be doing you may ask for this one whole month?

WELL
This is what I have in mind

-Bake,Bake,Bake
-Finish all korean dramas I have been wanting to watch
-Snap,Snap,Snap
-Kumon.I still have level M,N,O,X   *i think
-Finish up three major assignments
-JoongBo all day long
-Finish up all the books I have here
-Lose weight,Lose weight,Lose weight
-Spend time with Candy & Cherry
-Finish up SAM's first semester's syll
-IDKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.i have too much to do and wanting to do

Thus I will be posting about everything I will be doing and had been doing
starting from today.WELL nahh.I'll be posting it in my next post.

Here I come my dear Owen.OoOoopsie
It's oven *macam nak mintak penyepak tak.anyone care enough to sepak her?be my guest,I need one fast





Him now:)








I am not sure what is up with him but he just doesn't talk or is it because he cannot talk
I think he chose not to talk

This was wayy back then.He was soooo small







LET'S FLY TO INCHEON IN 2014


 after 




LONDON,2012!!!!!




BELLE!!!!
opening of Asian Games 2010, Kim Hyun Joong SANG!!


the closing of Asian games 2010, RAIN 
SANG!!!


As if it was tailored for us Belle!!!!!
OMG!Excited!





I just realised one sweet thing about life this week
To be honest there were more than one but for this time being I'll just write about this one thing
Reading in the Rain
To some it may not be the best thing
As some prefer silence

I have been that kind of person all my life that is why I tend to read just right before going to bed
I thought of needing the silence at those moment of time when everyone is in their blankets
I'd open the lamp with a shade for it is less burden to the eye.I don't know if its just me but I think it helps to have that lighting just right for the eye.OKAY WHATEVER
And start reading

Later did I found out
It was last week
Reading in the rain,
Of course not reading and at the same time getting all wet and damp
Under shades people
Be realistic
I am not that psychotic

When others are celebrating their time of life
Finishing their last paper
Shoving foods and drinks
I was alone siting in the rain under a tent at Taylor's with a book.It's end of our exam and I am still with a book call me a bookworm.It was just a coincident.HAHAH:B
The sound of solid raindrops hiiting he tent made this strong sound which separated me from others
Their breath was not to be heard by my ears and so did mine
It was like I am living in my own world
Except it was reality and not the world I have been picturing in mind
Nothing will bother me
They have theirs and I have mine at that moment
I started reading
It was better than reading in silence
I can read the story out loud and only I can hear the vibration of the sound
And not to be heard by others

Of course if I did this during normal day with no rain
I'd be stamped as a mad girl seeking for attention
So from this time on
I am the girl who loves to read in the rain:)





Yeayie!


It was my laptop


Filled withthose virus


Nothing to do with hacking I think


I hope






This Is for YOU dear:)

Who ever YOU are



Nice layout by the way:)
If you are too lazy to wait for this vid to buffer than here's the message

Sometimes You think You'll Be Fine by Yourself
Cause a Dream is a Wish You Make all alone
Its Easy to Feel Like You Dont Need Help
But Its Harder To Walk On Your Own

You'll Change
Inside
When You
Realize

The World Comes To Life
and Everything's bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend
The Gift of a Friend

Someone Who knows When Your Lost and Your Scared
There through The Highs and The Lows
Someone toCount On
Someone Who Cares
Besides You Where Ever You Go

You'll Change Inside
When You
Realize

The World Comes To Life
and Everythings bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe in
The Gift of a Friend

And When your Hope Crashes Down
Shattering To The Ground
You , You Feel All Alone
When You Don't Know Which Way To Go
And There's No signs Leading You home
You're Not Alone

The World Comes To Life
and Everything's bright
From Beginning To End
When You Have a Friend
By Your Side
That Helps You To Find
The Beauty you are
When You'll Open Your Heart and
Believe In
When You Believe In
When you Believe
The Gift of A Friend



I sat there teary
Hearing those birds mimicking the sound which was once very familiar
It took me a while to snap into reality

I seldom feel this heartache
But often when it hits me
It lasts long enough for me to remember
For me to get over
It maybe a scar for others
But for me it is a blooming flower







No one gets me so don't feel bad not understanding
I don't blame anyone
It is just how I roll :\





JoongBo:)



















I thought I heard a bird crashed into my window just now
Poor Birdie I hope it's OKAY.Its too dark outside I can't see a thing






I am not good at expressing myself



















To my family,
(I know none of them will be reading cause they don't have the link to my blog.It's better that way.HAHA)


You know how it's hard for me to say sorry whenever I did something wrong
I dont know if it's because the ego of the eldest or what


I hardly say I love you and Thank You.It's too hard that I would just remained silent when I know the best thing to say at that moment would be Thanks, at least

There are times when I feel like crying but i can't cry in front of you guys
I guess it is the ego of being the eldest.


I don't like being asked around to do something
but instead I like to do something without being asked
I think It's more sincere


I tend to give bad comments 
Cause I feel like it's better to hear it from me than others


I am not good at complimenting
When I want to compliment sometimes it just comes out the other way round


But Umi, Abah, Ihsan, Hannan, Aisyah, Mashi & Mushi
Just feel it with your <3













To my Friends,

Giving compliments are to be on the weakest side of me
Saying sorry is to be of a great lose to me
Uttering thanks are a bit hard for me
I love you would be those words where I just rather let it be
Not really keen of speaking those warm words to anybody
A few would realise this side of me
I am the kind that still learns to see
That somehow there is this reality
That is unknowingly to be part of me
I am not good at expressing the inner me
When actually there are a lot of things to say from me
But just feel it with your heart
That Husna here sees what you actually see
When you see in the mirror that pretty face of yours
Husna sees it too
But she is not the kind to say it out loud
All your kindness she felt she scribbles it in her memory
Not to let the whole world knows
But she do feel it




"I am not good at expressing
Forgive me for that side of me
It's not that of a big deal actually
I'm sure you will hear from others
Of your natural beauty colours"

No one knows how weak this heart is
He knows best





When the sky is torn

When the stars are scattered


When the seas are poured forth


When the tombs are burst open


Then a soul will know what it has given


And what it has held back


Oh, O human being


What has deceived you about your generous Lord


Who created you and shaped you and made you right 


In whatever form he willed for you..(82: 1-8)






I realised I had too much of imaginations until this very second
It's true how imaginations bring me to another part of the world
Where everything seems sweet and fluffy
Nothing harms you in your imaginations
But I learnt the truth
That They are planning to seduce us with these types of weapons
They are too weak that their weapon had to be something that we could never imagine
Something hit me hard today
It was not a tractor nor a cute hot boy
It was something in silence
It crawled to the upper veins of mine
I felt the shiver
I know angan-angan is not the same of my imaginations and dream
So need not worry
But I knew I had to get strict and straight to whatever that rolls down a hill which seems adorable to me
There will be screenings
InsyaAllah no need to worry
With the cage, no no no the pen that I have created
I should do OK



It looks as if it's not real thou
One of the backgrounds for Cherry,My Acer:)

Who's cherry?
You will meet her later:B

THE MOOD RIGHT NOW?


 wants a detailed husband like KHJ

He makes every small tiny little things seem important

That's the best part
I miss THIS




and THIS 




THEM too





THIS too



Okay and Them





Now I really hope that MBC would have a second thought on airing this SCENES
Why did you guys had to skip/delete these scenes!
UGH
At least upload it on youtube or something
ISHHHHHH
Hate the fact that I am Missing Them:\


(",)


HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


 나 비 랗, suka ?






Whenever we had made our mind

Effort, Du'a and Tawakkal comes along

Hope this goes the same for myself








































 :B




You read this and you understand
You'll understand what i'm trying to say then







From another blogger,
I feel connected to the writer
In every single way




Heart flutters just seeing them




Dear Kim Hyun-joong and Hwangbo,
Hi, it’s me, a huge fan of yours.  I know your stint on WGM lasted only a couple of months, however, your time together was quite impressionable.  You made me laugh, you definitely made me cry, but most of all you guys made me believe in the institution of friendship and love. 
            So, I’m kind of mad at you guys.  See, before I watched WGM, I was perfectly normal.  Now my fiancée thinks I’m kind of a nutcase.  For fun, I like to watch clips of you guys over and over and over.  Now that I think about it, I’ve made every single person in my family watch WGM just so we can analyze your relationship. I also spend a great amount of time stalking you guys over the internet, largely because I’m confused.  So, if you can clarify a couple of things for me, I would greatly appreciate it.
            For starters, can you please tell me what’s going on!!!  I mean, I would love for you guys to be together but I totally understand if you guys aren’t.   However, what boggles my mind is that there might be a slight chance that you guys don’t even talk.  How can that be possible?  Do you guys know how great you are together?  Do you? Well, you are.  Trust me. I know.  That’s why so many Joongbo fans spend all their time searching for clues.  It just doesn’t make sense to us.   You guys brought out the best in each other.  The foundation to your friendship was so strong.   How is it possible that you can’t remain friends?  What’s the real deal?  Take us out of out our misery. We’ll be sad if you guys aren’t a couple but at least we’ll take comfort in the fact that your friendship is a lasting one.  
            C'mon you can tell us the truth because this “we really don’t talk to each other” mess isn’t flying with us. Don’t make us go paparazzi on you.  Just sayin’

Love,
me








HAHAH
Husna mulaaaa daaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh





It started off as something very predictable












Seemed plain
Along the journey of his life he opened to mine
Our lifes met at a bridge
Connected by those random thoughts and feelings
I felt connected to his plain life story
As if he knows mine
Like he was talking about my life, in a way
The connection I felt made me
Sat in my seat following the story line
It ended beautifully
I hope mine would turn out that way
Cancel off all those viking matters OF COURSE

I learnt
We have the rights to express ourselves
But we have the problem of expressing like we hope to
We get stuck in the middle of a conversation
That is an irritation
I am learning to express myself more
But the more I try to express the more it seems to constrain

Ena,Syida
There were drops of remorse at first
But I enjoyed it
Hope you guys did too








Siapa perfect?
habaq mai sini
Is it so wrong for me to get
at least one thing in life that would turn out to be close to perfect?

We can be as close as umbrellas to rain


But the fact remains that we are like clouds and birds


flapping their wings in the blue sky not being able to touch the fluffy cotton floating high


We can act like we are birds of a feather


But the truth is we are actually feathers of different birds


Chances for a bridge to be build between us is possible


As we can see each other in different mirrors


I can see your reflection and You can see mine


Cause it takes Two to Tango


Two to create history like how Wright's brothers did


How Khadijah stayed true to Our Prophet


Twins of different genders making a complete set


Even Cats and Dogs can be best friends


Why can't us